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The test that told all

The Guardian Ad Litem had spoke words. Words, words, words...come on brain WORK! I asked her to repeat herself, followed with are you sure? "Yes okay we will see you in two days". *Click* My best friend looked at me, what was that? Was that about Anthony?! Did they get the results?! I broke into tears leaving her unsure of how to act with my face still in shock. I finally found a way to speak. "They said there is 0% chance that he is the father...! In two days we set our adoption finalization date!" We cried so many happy tears in that moment. Everything in the world was perfect. All the worries, the fear, going to bed every night not knowing if it was my last day with AJ it was all worth every moment to have a lifetime with him. 

Two days later on August 1st 2017 we arrived to court. Not a single things that was said by the Guardian Ad Litem, or the case worker was processed, my heart was racing, my adrenaline at an all time high, oh and you remember that over thinking part I mentioned? Yeah that kicked in too. My thoughts raced, this is too good to be true, it can't be over yet right? There has to be more mountains to climb. It was time to listen, it was time to pick a day to present to the judge for adoption. There had to be an 8 week waiting period between this day and adoption day. 8 weeks from now landed us in October. They asked what day would you like to do? I jokingly said how about my birthday so the best present comes every year? We all pulled out our calendars and the case worker said, "Well the adoption has to be on a Tuesday, what day is your birthday?" I told them it was October 10. You guessed it, that landed on a Tuesday! But it was the day after Columbus Day, which they close down and it was possible they wouldn't have court that day. We were going to present it to the judge with high hopes. 

We entered the court room and all stood for the judge. We sat down, and this time every cell in me was ready to listen and take in every word that was said. We went over things quickly and it was decided, we would be setting our adoption finalization date..BUT (this is what the over thinking part of me was waiting for) no father had been established. This was a problem? I thought this made it easier! They had to publish in the newspaper multiple times the details of the situation and add "if you suspect you could be the father call this number". I knew there was more loop holes to work through. We proceeded to end court with our requested adoption date, the judge sat and thought.."I believe that is Columbus Day"..she looked at her calendar. She looked up and smiled, "October 10th we will proceed with finalizing the adoption." 

As we got in the car my emotions were scattered as if I had dropped a bag of marbles and they were all going in different directions. The date was set, the perfect day. But would somebody come forth and claim to be the father? 


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